Dedication

Looking at my blog, it's been so long since I updated it. What have I been doing during this time? There are many things I could have done, but how much of it have I actually accomplished? How much of my initial enthusiasm has faded away?

I suddenly feel so tired here. Unlike back home, I can't find anyone here who I can really communicate with. Everyone is so calculating and driven by self-interest. There's a lack of understanding and care; I'm so emotionally exhausted.

I missed another penalty today, my third this year, and my third since I started playing football. When I was a kid, I always thought shooting from nine yards out was incredibly easy, but for some reason, standing on that nine-yard line now fills me with dread. 2012: my first championship, my eighth runner-up finish.

When it comes to dedication, most people think it's something only fools do. The first thing that pops into my mind when I think of this word is SIFE (Society for the Advancement of Life). I didn't stay there long, but the impression it left was incredibly profound. What drives people forward? What fills them with passion? What enables an ordinary person to do great things? Money, fame, and fortune can't do this; only faith in life can. Why do we live? What is the meaning of our lives? How can we make our lives more vibrant and fulfilling over the decades?

Lately, many people have been asking me why HelloGwu, which isn't profitable, has any purpose. But I want to ask, why must it be profitable or beneficial to oneself to do something like this? I'm building a platform to help students communicate, access information, and help new students integrate into school life as quickly as possible—isn't that the purpose? Why are there so many strange looks directed at me here? Before I came to the US for university, I desperately needed these materials, but I felt helpless and confused. I just want future students to avoid that kind of confusion. That's its purpose. If it can be passed down from generation to generation, how wonderful that would be.

Serving, creating, and helping more people live better lives—that's what I mean, of course, after ensuring my own basic needs are met. It's not that I'm without personal desires; I am selfish, but I simply enjoy using my abilities to do something meaningful in my spare time. Please don't speak ill of me or treat me coldly.

I believe there are many people like me in this world. I've met some, and we've walked together for a while. I think I'll meet many more in the future.

I've had a good time here, and a bad time. I've seen hope and a future here. I've also witnessed a rich diversity of humanity, shattering my previous perceptions. I need to accept all of this, readjust myself, and continue my journey in the direction I initially set out for, without letting people on different paths hold me back for too long.

Thank you for your company!