A new season is coming.

I went to school to register today, picked up my new textbooks for next semester, and felt a surge of ambition again! It's always like this at this time of year—the passion for striving reignites. However, as time goes by, the goals I set seem to drift further and further away, until I reach another point in time. Looking back, I feel utterly disappointed, utterly lost, and utterly frustrated. Then I start all over again, and the cycle repeats itself…

Time waits for no one. If I continue to waste my time like this, I think I will achieve nothing. Looking back, there are many reasons for this tragedy, which I will analyze one by one.
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The goal itself is not the problem; the problem lies in how it is achieved. Sometimes I overestimate my abilities, and sometimes I over-plan.

Focus: Restlessness has always been my problem. Since leaving high school, I've almost never focused on anything, which is the biggest obstacle to my success. Is it the allure of the world, or my lack of self-control? Actually, I think it's the lack of self-control. Growing up with a lot of external control, I become adrift once that control is gone. I noticed this problem in my senior year of high school, but unfortunately, I didn't change it. Calm down, calm down again.

Planning: Planning has always been something I'm proud of, and I've always considered it a powerful tool for solving problems. However, as one plan after another is left unfinished, and the original plans are repeatedly scaled back, the final results are greatly reduced. This problem is related to self-control. Originally, the plans were quite relaxed, but after a while, I started to feel anxious. I kept putting things off until the next day, and in the end, I had to revise the original plans.

I've never thought about what kind of person I want to become because I've never worried about my future. But I always feel uncomfortable if I'm not proficient in something. In the 20 years I've lived, I can play football skillfully, modify website code skillfully, build my own website skillfully, and operate certain machines skillfully... but I'm not proficient in any of them. I seem to be omnipotent, but in reality, I'm not proficient in anything. In the upcoming semester, I need to change all of this.

I aim to become proficient in PHP and .NET web programming, and secondly, to master and apply the knowledge I gain from my coursework. I also hope to develop new insights into my interests: management and psychology.