Preface

This is a late article. I had the urge to write it after I accepted the offer, but I had no choice but to resign, move, get a visa, and other things piled up together, and I held it back for a long, long time. I originally wanted to commemorate it with the title "Why I rejected Google and chose Grab", but as time went by, I gave up. You may miss the only opportunity in your life to use Google to increase your own value :).

Today I have to take the five-hour high-speed train to Beijing, which is a rare leisure time. It also coincides with my 29th birthday, so I will use this article to summarize my thoughts and changes. This article explains this choice based on the experience of the past few years. It may be relatively long and has been divided into several titles. Friends who are not interested in reading it can skip the "Memory Killing" part directly.

Divergence points in 2010

There are so many things that can be summarized and shared in these 29 years, but in retrospect, the most important point of difference was in 2010. There were many roads in front of me that year, including staying in school, starting a business, working in Alibaba, entering politics, etc. For me at that time, it seemed that I could conquer every road. However, one night in the second half of the year, my father and I came up with a completely different idea - to go abroad. I had always thought that my family was "poor", but suddenly I found that my family was actually quite "rich". My parents agreed to my decision without hesitation.

I have forgotten what my thoughts were at that time. For the arrogant me at that time, I most likely just thought that people who "went abroad" were more "6B". After all, I have always been the one who rushed to the front since I was a child. It was such an immature idea that changed the trajectory of my life for the first time.

It was already the end of 2010, and I had no idea about the GRE and TOEFL requirements for going abroad. From the beginning of 2011 to August 2011, I prepared according to the college entrance examination model, getting up early every day and then not going to class. My classmates probably thought I was "doing something". However, with a good foundation and luck, I did well in the exam and finally caught up with the application season.

In 2012, I went from a person who had never been out of Hangzhou to another hemisphere on the earth.

silence

Studying and living abroad is much simpler than I imagined. The nerves that have been tense since high school are slowly relaxing with the comfort of the environment. The various awards in my senior year and the "success" after studying abroad have made my "perception" of myself more and more expanded.

After graduating early, I found a similar job and started my own "entrepreneurship". I worked on several projects, large and small. Although the income was good, there was never one that allowed me to completely jump out and do it full-time. The reason is that I am relatively "conservative" and I really don't have the confidence to pursue long-term projects without hematopoiesis capabilities.

Time passed very quickly after graduation, and in 2017, I suddenly found that I was no longer in the "novice protection" stage, and gradually became a "social person". The so-called "social person", in my opinion, means that I can no longer protect myself as a student, or even use the honors and awards I received as a student. I feel like I've suddenly reached an age where I can't get up and down. Discovering that the glory of the past is no longer available, and in the workplace, finding that one's abilities and passion cannot be used, it is like discovering that one's "skills" have been blocked and can only draw an A. How can I tolerate this?

clear

In 2017, with the help of noble people, I entered the O family. I have started a new journey, looking forward to using my abilities and making a career in a large company.

I lived a very nurturing life in O's house, everything was fine, but I felt extremely empty inside. This was mainly due to the fact that I was not taken seriously and had little room for development. After all, I was not the only one missing in a large company with so many talented people. In my personality, the only way to stimulate my abilities is to know me and value me, otherwise I will paddle very delicately.

In the past two years, I have often envied the plots in movies where the protagonist and his friends go on adventures together. I often wonder, when will I be able to defeat a dungeon with my martial arts skills? ——I summarize this as leisure after having enough food and clothing, but isn’t this the real life? What joy would there be in life without a shared adventure with friends, using up one's abilities in a team to defeat a "boss" that one thought was impossible?

Starting in 2018, colleagues around me gradually began to leave their jobs, and I also began to think about it. My thinking changed from "how to realize self-worth through entrepreneurship" to "how to prove my own value in the industry." After many attempts with little success, I gradually became confused.

Since 2019, due to work reasons, I have traveled to many places, including Sanfan, Denver, New York, and Boston in the United States, as well as Japan, Spain, etc. overseas. The more I travel, the more ideas I have, and the more I feel that I need to leave my comfort zone and do something I really want to do.

Why reject Google and choose Grab?

If deciding to go abroad was the first time that changed the trajectory of my life, coming to O's house was the second change. With this, I had the advantage of being superior. I could choose to actively work and live in any country/region. This change was profound. I was no longer a chicken who went to the market to beg for a meal. I began to realize myself, what I really like, and what kind of life I want. My future is not just in Washington, not just in the United States, but the whole world!

After more than a month of preparation (see job-hopping experience for details:https://blog.jing.do/7756), the offer came as expected. Choosing an offer is a very painful thing. It is like a "scumbag" who flirts with several young ladies at once, and they all want to develop a serious relationship with you at the same time.

Google has always been my top 1 dream company. I was extremely excited to receive their offer, but this time it was not at the right time. Now I want to go to a place that values ​​myself, can exert myself and prove myself, and Grab makes me feel their sincerity.

This feeling is like that in the European transfer market in 2015, Real Madrid/Barcelona extended an olive branch, but by chance, they learned about Leicester City's ambitions. Such a metaphor makes me feel that I should always choose the latter. After all, the latter has the ideas and passion to conquer the country, and I can do my best to help this event happen.

My experience tells me that I should be bolder and bolder at all times. There is only one life, and any choice is correct. Don’t get hung up on the right or wrong choice, but actively look for the road to your goal.

postscript

Achieve yourself in greatness, or create greatness? I would choose the latter rather than overestimating my abilities. Just like I said a long time ago, "I'd rather be a chicken head than a phoenix tail." This is just my personality, and I'm glad it hasn't changed.

Today I have entered the age of 29. I am very happy that fate gave me a choice at this time. I chose a direction and rekindled my passion. In the next few years, I will run towards my goal in the wind.

It's nice to have that long lost passion back.